It's Going To Be Ok

I hear this saying a lot, "It's going to be okay". I wish I could believe this to be true, and parts of me DO believe this. However last night my brain just decided to send images and I just started to cry out of blue. This made the bear think that there is just something mentally wrong with me. It's hard for me to talk to him about this which makes it worse, but I finally broke down and told him what was going on in my head and he understood. I really hate talking about the images that flash before my eyes. They are just so damn hard to take sometimes. The fact that I can just go from happy to sad in a blink of an eye disturbs me. I try really hard to bottle up all emotion but it gets hard to take sometimes and the bottle breaks wide open. I know it's not healthy to keep shoving my emotions down, but I don't want to be a wreck either. I know that I don't have to deal with this alone, and I really should talk more openly so I'm not a wreck. I just hate it.