Final Entry

So I've decided that this will be the last blog entry. I no longer have a need for this and frankly I don't have the time.

For Reasons Unknown

Mondays are usually busy and all about playing catch up from the weekend. Two days off to do whatever you want, and Monday to talk about the activities you did, well not all the activities. You also learn shit you never wanted to about those you considered friends. I learned a hard lesson on why underlings are not allowed to be friends with their bosses. I still can't believe what I heard and for now on will just let it lay. I'm not going to keep apologizing. Instead, I'm going to keep my mouth shut. I'm see the signs and they are not very clear yet, but I can see danger a mile away. Time for me to back off.

Everything Must End

Here's to anyone having those Monday blues, the great thing is this is my last Monday for me. Starting next week my days will change to Tuesday thru Saturday. I'm really happy to do this change and be able to have a day where I can play catch up on all the side projects that have been given to me. First one being the Job Fair that the AGM wants me to do. So, I'll be spending my first Saturday researching and putting this together.

Friday found me being the drink bitch while watching my friends try their luck at the slots. They were up and down most of the evening but in the end it was them giving their money to the machines, except for one who walked out with $500. He did very well. Saturday was the day of FUN!! First I got my one chore out of the way by giving my poor hot dog a haircut. Then I went down to see my sister, who I haven't seen in almost 20 years. She's grown up so much and is doing so well for herself. She has an amazing husband and two adorable kids. I'm so proud of how much she's matured. After the visit it was time to return home and get ready for my night out. The bear decided to drop me off down town and stopped at the bank to get some drinking money out. When we pulled up to drop me off at the bar, my coworkers were just getting out of their car. So I decided to yell out the window at them and scared the shit out of them in the process. And the fun began. We met up at the Urban Onion for pre dancing drinks and to our surprise they were having a Karaoke contest. At first we turned down the offer, but after a few drinks in my system, I decided that I would throw my hat in the ring. The motto for the night was "FUCK THE WORLD". I chose a Ke$ha song and totally butchered the crap out of it, but the queens loved my dance moves and said I preformed it better than the original artist, which isn't really that hard to do. After my turn, we made our way to Jakes on 4th and danced the rest of the night. It was really really fun and would love to do it again.

Now it's Monday and time to go to work. BLAH!!

Past & Present

Today is a very busy fun time for me. I'm going to where I work to visit with my sister. A sister who I haven't seen in almost 20 years. I get to meet my nephews for the first time as well as her hubby. I'm super excited to give her a hug and hang out for a few. I think I'll be taking a lot of pictures. Around 5 or 6 two of my coworkers will be meeting me at work to head back up to my place and have some pre-drinks before we head out to down town Olympia, with the bear being our chauffeur for the evening. I'm so excited to just let my hair down and let the crazy with these people. 

Jealousy Can Be Aweful

I'm not one to get jealous in any means. There were times that I'd start to feel jealousy rearing it's ugly head and it was mostly because of the amount of money someone else was making or what ever. But I quickly get over it knowing how much time and education they've put in their fields. Then there is the relationship side of jealousy. I just don't get jealous knowing the ground rules that are made a head of time. Take for example me and the bear have been together 14 years and it's nice to see the bear get jealous showing his emotions. However, it's usually because of the shit people did to him in the past and comparing me to those jerk offs really pisses me off but I do see his point. You'd think after 14 years he'd know that I would never intentionally do anything like what they did behind his back and sometimes in his face. That seemed like a lifetime ago, which it really was. The bear's former best friend, rest in peace, was the worst of the worse. I honestly didn't see the friendship there knowing that this guy was the biggest talker in town, meaning he spread hate speech about everyone behind their back but would tell them he loved them to their face. I chalked it down that he was very jealous of the bear for finding someone to share his life with. When I moved over here I was 20 years old, new to the world it seemed, and very naive. Now I'll be 35 this July and think to myself "Was I ever that stupid?" the answer is yes, yes I was!! In that time, jealousy has just eluded me at every turn thankfully, and it's mostly due to learning how the game of life is played along the way. I'd be lying if I said I've never felt the jealous bug bite me, but I learned to deal with it and move on. Now anger, there's an emotion that I have a hard time with letting go, but that's a different topic for a different day.

Every Moment

Just remember that every single moment counts from the little boring detail to the extravagant trips and big adventures. You never know when the final curtain call will come but before that does live your life. Let go of all the shit from the past that doesn't matter any longer and no worries about the future because it hasn't been written. Hell, stop worrying altogether because it won't get you anywhere in this life. Just throw up those middle fingers and scream FUCK IT I DON'T CARE!!

To See You Again

I finally got to meet my great nephew yesterday. My niece and her boyfriend visited the lodge and it was a very very nice surprise. It was great to see them since I wasn't able to at Easter. I decided to get them fed with a pizza voucher that I hardly use and park passes also so they could have some fun instead of his sister having to pay. My great nephew is so damn cute!!