So Many Games

The bear and his brother left yesterday leaving me with my own laziness. I spent 8 hours watching college football. So many games so little time, but I did get to watch some good ones. Now if only every weekend could be like this I would be a happy Cub. Soon, when we move to our new place where we will have two tvs lol. One more month!

Trust and Opportunity

Yesterday morning, I walked into my office to see an opening for me to post that at first had my name all over it. With out hesitation I post the job and then applied for it. The bad part is that I didn't think it through for I was blinded by this bright shiny star that laid before me. I even went as far as to talk to the one who posted the position after talking to my bosses first of course. As the day progressed and the more I thought about it and with the little hazing I received from heffe and Diva, it dawned on me that I had only been in my position for such a short time and didn't really give the whole idea very much thought. Even though my bosses would never want to hold me back, I realized that I really didn't want to leave them and where I was especially since Diva fought to get me. So I rejected my application and came back to earth. I regret my decision, it just came at a bad time, and quite frankly I'm just not going to abandon my HR team. So I'm staying put and hopefully I didn't ruin any trust that they had in me, I guess I'll find out today. Last night I had a dream about the person who posted the position, which like all my dreams turned very weird very fast. First she was telling me that she wasn't able to sleep with out a mask, which is just odd for I don't think she sleeps EVER. Then a little later as we laid in separate beds, she turned to me and said we should finish off the specialty drinks she had made. WTF? It could have been influenced by the vodka lemonade that I was drinking last night, which btw is very tasty and I recommend it to anyone. So here is to the weekend and being grounded by my anchors.

Tired zzzzzzz

After working a 12 hour shift on Tuesday, I was so tired come the next day. The original plan was for me to come in late on Wednesday however my body decided it wanted to get up at 4:30am. I went in at 9am and got all my work done, so come 1pm I was so pooped. Honestly, I shouldn't have been driving but how else was I going to get home. It reminded me of the time we drove back from Vegas without sleep, that was a scary ass experience. Now that I'm rested and ready to start a new, let's just hope that we can finish off the week great.

Business As Usual

Yesterday was a very productive and busy day. After a week of casual dress and 6 hr days, it's back to business as usual. It was nice to have the team back in full swing, and the Heffe brought back great news from Madison. The lodge in Cali is a go!! I'm super excited to watch this develop and finally get built after a year of excitement and anticipation. During lunch, we shared our weekends, and like always mine was the least exciting, but that's how I like it. My mind was still on the good news lol. I got my hands full today with a huge orientation gathering (that's if everyone shows). I'm estimating 15 people, my biggest yet. Today is going to be a long day. I'm very happy with how my job is going and learning new things, so the next chapter is to learn some Spanish. Then I would like to learn Cali laws. I think being where I'm at is the right direction for my career. I finally watched a Monday night game last night with the mockery that the bear could bring as well. The Hawks won, but not without controversy due to the stupid refs that replaced the ones on strike. It reminded me of their Superbowl and how many calls were made during that game. This time it was in their favor. Our shows premiered last night and they are starting of with a bang, however I foresee one new one not lasting too long. It's kind of annoying and not that funny. Well this dog is surrounding me like a buzzard and acting a fool (that's right I said it, I'm hip). Oh yeah this week also finds me without my partner in crime with means I'm going to be smoking solo. I hope she enjoys Chicago!!

Already?

Well this weekend is gone, but it brings with it good news. Our shows are back on tonight YAY!! Which means we are going to become couch potatoes once more. Oh wait, that really never changed. If I wasn't so busy at work, I would probably call in DEAD. But since that never works, I'll put my big boy britches on and face the day. SIGH!!

Busy Busy Busy

Yesterday was very busy with all the peeps that aquatics hired over shutdown and the weekend before. Looks like a huge group for sure. Now the weekend is here and still busy with our running around getting odds and ends for the house. I got up this morning at 5, which isn't bad since I've been getting up at 4 the entire week of shutdown. Since this weekend isn't going to be that eventful I'm going to enjoy a nice quiet evening in my headphones listening to all the new music I've purchased this year.

No Bosses

Today tiny and I are without Authority, which means I'm in charge of our department. We are only opened for a few hours today, we still have lots to do. There is filing for tiny and status change reports for me to fill out, plus we have a gaggle (yes I said gaggle) of new lifeguards coming in to do drug screens and back ground paper work. We will be busy, so busy that we won't even notice that our bosses are absent. It's going to be a great day. They put their trust in us and we won't let them down. Enjoy your time off Diva, and here's to a quick Doc visit. In other news, I had a great night even though I went to bed early. I wanted so much to go have a beer and the one day that I'm invited to go is the day I have to be home early for the bear to have the car. Oh well, there will be other times I'm sure. I'm hoping that tonight will be one of those times lol. The month of new music rolls on for this music whore, as I purchased 4 out of the 6 new albums that I've been craving. First was Alanis, and like the previous it's pretty good. Next was one of my favorites, Matchbox Twenty. They are always great in my eyes and this one was no exception. And then I got two in one visit, P!nk and The Killers, so far I'm liking what I'm hearing from both albums. P!nk like always sounds a bit angry yet ready to rock while The Killers are a little more laid back this time around. The best thing is I already have my faves from each album. The next two are released this coming Tuesday being Mumford & Son's second album and Weezer. I think I have enough albums to start my own radio station. Now if only Third Eye Blind and Lifehouse would release new stuff my world would be complete for now. Well TGIF everyone, have a wonderful weekend!!

It's Thursday Already

I'm not one to brag, but this has been one productive week. Shutdown has benefited all of us with getting stuff taken care of and being conscious of our hours and what not, and being able to leave early is a plus. Sucks for the check but hell I won't be hurting at all so I'm good. This week has been full of revelations understandings and bonding between the Diva and I. We've laughed, we've cried (not really), and we've judged others relentlessly, because we can. Friday leaves tiny and I opening HR (ER) alone where we will be getting about 6 new peeps getting their stuff filled out, and what ever else may come. I'm excited for the weekend because it means I'm not doing anything as of yet and those are the best days. If we feel like doing anything on the fly it's all up to us.

In The Midst

I'm not saying that I don't deserve any success, but I must stay humble about it all. I really would like to thank everyone who's helped me get to where I'm at in life and for helping me see the bigger picture. We really do have big dreams and boy would I love to achieve them. I'm super excited about having some slow time this next week, going into shutdown will be great. It's going to give a lot of people the much needed R & R they deserve. Since my boss man is going to be in Madison all week, we are left to our own devices, which is just going to be some much needed clean up. Organizing this, dead filing that, some clean up from the past that may finally relinquish the chains and tarnished rep that the department has gotten once and for all. The weekend was so relaxing that I don't know how I got out of bed this morning but I succeeded lol. So here's to another start to a great relaxing week.

Seminar

Yesterday, me and a co-worker that I'll dub as tiny, went to an HR seminar to get some insight on how HR law works. I didn't have much hope for it, but put my skepticism aside. To my surprise, it was actually a great training and the speaker was very good. She is from Arkansas and her field of work is strictly HR Law. She is very knowledgeable, friendly, and a great speaker. Oh and did I mention funny, yes she had us cracking up with her mannerisms and the stories she told from working with the Walmart Corp. I did enjoy the seminar and to spend some time with tiny was good also.  We ate lunch at the Spar, where our waitress was the best I'd ever had. The food was good but my favorite thing was the coffee. After all was said and done, I had a great day.

It's Going To Be Ok

I hear this saying a lot, "It's going to be okay". I wish I could believe this to be true, and parts of me DO believe this. However last night my brain just decided to send images and I just started to cry out of blue. This made the bear think that there is just something mentally wrong with me. It's hard for me to talk to him about this which makes it worse, but I finally broke down and told him what was going on in my head and he understood. I really hate talking about the images that flash before my eyes. They are just so damn hard to take sometimes. The fact that I can just go from happy to sad in a blink of an eye disturbs me. I try really hard to bottle up all emotion but it gets hard to take sometimes and the bottle breaks wide open. I know it's not healthy to keep shoving my emotions down, but I don't want to be a wreck either. I know that I don't have to deal with this alone, and I really should talk more openly so I'm not a wreck. I just hate it.

And Another

This weekend was very uneventful, just the way I like it. We watched Tim Burton's Sweeny Todd, which was very gory and a good movie. The bear says it was pretty accurate to the play. Now I want to see Angela Landsbury play the wacko Ms. Lovetts lol. The rest of the weekend I spent surfing the web and just relaxing. Now to start another week of work.

Finally Secured

After our last payment today, we will have paid our final security deposit. Then it's time to save our move in money, to which I will have to them by the end of the month. All we have to do now is sit and wait until the lease from hell is over. Granted, it hasn't been all that bad, we got a place to live after getting kicked out of Toledo, hurt feelings aside it was the kick we needed. I haven't had to spend half the time as the bear has dealing with all the crack heads that live here. But I've experienced enough to know that we deserved so much better. It's going to be expensive but I know what needs to happen for us to be financially secured. I have no doubts that we will be fine in our new place. In fact, I'm super excited and leaving the worrying to the bear since he's so damn good at it.

# 2

For weeks now, I've been feeling great about where my future is headed. I just can't believe what a change. But there is still dark clouds looming as I sit back and watch shit flow from my former department. I shouldn't be surprised at anything that is said or the crap that is done. But I really am. The foundation is really shaken and I don't think it can be repaired at this point in time due to uncaring people working there. I've moved on from the drama but it's still surrounding me from the reports that I'm given from my partner in crime. I feel bad that she has to deal with such disrespect and negativity. When I was sitting next to her it seemed that she didn't always have to vacate the office, but now that an equally as annoying and uncaring person (more like self centered) has taken my place, it's hard for her to concentrate and stay focused. I hate seeing her so upset and hating that which she loves. I keep telling her it will be better but at this point all it sounds like is shit coming from my mouth since there isn't any real sign of things getting better yet they are getting much worse. I want to tell her to hang in there and not let it bother her as much, speak her mind but in a more tactful manner, but she's really not one to back down from anything and it bothers me because she's so damn intelligent. If she only knew how smart she really was and not to be so damn hard on herself. She would probably be able to tolerate the stupidity that has surrounded her. But she is like me, which is very scarey, to where she can't except the stupid any longer. However, I will still be there for her and I hope that she knows this.

Back To The Salt Mines

Btw, so not comparing my work with any hard working laborer, it's a figure of speech that the bear came up with (I think). Anywho, it's time to go back and face reality once more. As I loved the whole I'm retired and don't have to work lifestyle, alas I'm only 34 and far from retirement. Plus, now I have to work hard to pay for all the expensive things we bought, like the sectional (which is amazing btw, so damn comfy). After a great 5 days off, it's going to be hard to return, but I must.

One More Day

As my five days wind down to a close, I just want to say I had a great time off. Back at it tomorrow with a few things to catch up on but with the support that I have, I already know that I'm not coming back to a nightmare. The football game was awesome and spending time with my sister and mom was just great to say the least. I sure do love them a lot. I hope that we can do it again soon. It's nice to have a sibling so close. Football season is right around the corner too so I'm hoping that we can spend the Sundays watching it together, I just hope that she can come down here to see my new place as soon as we move in, which is only 2 months away now. So happy to finally be able to leave this hell hole behind us. Some people may call us crazy for paying as much as we are for the new place, but it's really a test for us to see if we can actually afford living down in Cali, and I say to them let us be. So what if we are crazy, we are going to be happy crazy people, lmao!! Happy Monday everyone!!