In Love With My Own Mind

I can say that I'm full of myself, but people wouldn't believe this as being true. I do tend to joke a lot but that's just me. I'm never too serious about anything but there are a those moments that I can be serious when it calls and is appropriate. Those who know me know that I'm just a silly little man with aspirations to be better than I am without losing my sense of humor. I need to take a cue from my partner in crime at work and learn to let it go, but I just can't shake the feeling. So there are times that my roller coaster will take a huge dip to the negative region of the ride. It freaking sucks to feel so damn low at times. Lately, I haven't let my mind slip to that place which means I'm due for a mental break down. I just need to stop being so over dramatic. I'm very weird that way, one minute I'm joking and having a good time and the next I'm down in the dumps feeling sorry for myself and shit like that. It's really retarded that I don't have my feelings in check, but I am a little crazy and it goes with the territory. I can sit here and lie to myself and vow that I'll never be so down blah blah blah, but like I said it's only lies. So I deal with my mind playing tricks on itself making myself believe in things that aren't true and there you have it, down again.