Forgiveness

To start my newly blog, I would like to begin with something that isn't easy for me, FORGIVENESS. This comes from receiving as well as giving and it isn't always going to come. I would like to think that I"m a humble man who has experienced some major bs in my life. I've made huge mistakes, ones that I don't care to repeat making it a lesson learned situation. I forgive where forgiveness is warranted and letting go of grudges isn't easy for me. I'm one of those people that if you've done wrong to I'm going to hold on to that for a very long time. I don't forget anything rather good or bad. That being said, my ex-roommate recently reached out to me and the bear for the first time in 4 years. He really did a number on us and I thought we would never hear or see him again. One day the bear looks at me and says he misses the ex-roommate and that he wouldn't mind talking to him again. Come to find out, Karma is truly a bitch and bit the ex-roommate in the ass. For this, we forgave him for any wrong doings he did. But, there is another to whom I truly despise with all my being, she will remain nameless and her relationship to me will stay a mystery to all those who read this. She at one time was a good friend and there wasn't a time that I didn't think she was an awful person. As the years progressed I started to see her true colors as they shined through and realized that I wanted no part in such a hateful, self centered, and just plain gross person. Gross meaning her point of view and personality. Her demeanor towards another human being is just so damn unbelievable that you'd think she was a fictitious character that I made up for this blog, but no she is real. The only thing that pisses me off is the fact I let her have this power over me making me an emotional mess most of the time. I just realized that this is becoming a bitch fest more then anything so I'll drop it. I'm just going to close this subject by saying forgiveness is something that is earned and not to be given out like candy at Halloween. People who really show that they realized how they messed up and can truly apologize should be granted forgiveness. Those who never change will always be the ones who are forgotten in the long run.  "Seasons change but people don't" ~FOB. Thanks for reading and stay tuned because my point of view will shine through.