I Apologize

Friday was a frustrating and stressful day until I let it all go. The positives were me losing 2 more pounds from our Biggest Loser competition at work and mentioned in the Diva's blog team red has lost 20lbs collectively, GO US!! I went from being #2 out of 12 to #3 but we still have 6 weeks to go. My mark is 220 by my birthday. The other positive note was being able to catch up with a good friend over beers and whiskey shots. I never realize how much I miss a person until you don't see them all the time. The weekend was nice and relaxing, but very short lived like they all are. It didn't end the way that I would have hoped due to my outburst to an innocent bear but that will be explained below.

Alright, I think I got them all out of the way, the negatives aren't as many because I'm just not a negative type of person.....okay not all the time. Work is work and I'm not going into great detail about any of that, but I will say this, thanks for taking the fun out of a new learning experience that I really didn't want to begin with. I took it because I figured it was my duty, but realized that I did have a say and that my voice will be heard damn it. A couple of weeks ago, this extra burden was given to me due to my position and that the person before me actually took care of it. But for her it came at a cost because she wasn't good at delegating responsibilities nor was she very organized to where her regular job was being jeopardized. So now it's my turn to take a swing at this and even though I'm way more grounded, I was getting frustrated. On top of it all my job was hurting due to what I called an extracurricular activity that honestly should have went to someone in a management role. But that is all behind me now due to resigning from the head position on Friday. I was hating the fact that it was affecting my work and home life to the point of being unbearable to be around me. I didn't realize it, but I was being short with the bear and not very talkative. Which leads me to my outburst, granted I was sleepy and getting cranky, but that was no excuse to bite the bear's head off over something so stupid. He simply mentioned one little thing and I fucking came unglued. For this I apologize, but what if an apology isn't enough? After calming down and realizing what I had done, we talked and that's when he told me how I'd been acting and that he was glad that I stepped down from the committee at work. He didn't want my health and relationship to suffer for something as small that blew up to be bigger than it should have been. Now it's Monday, and it's time to head back to work, then I realized it's Martin Luther King Jr day and am wondering if the office is even opened. Oh well, I guess I'll find out.