Monday, January 28, 2013

Against What Is Best

Why do we as humans fight against what we know is best? A simple question but not simple answers. I know that when we are sick we should be taking care of ourselves, because how good are we if we are dead. But we dread what will happen is we miss too much school, how far behind is this going to make me, am I ever going to catch up at work. I know that taking care of yourself makes the sickness easier to fight and control and takes less time for it to heal rather than think you are better and that the meds are fooling you to make you feel better and you go on with your daily routine. Just to find out the following day that you are actually sicker than you started because you didn't take care of yourself. Well, I'm taking this day for me and my cold to say good bye to one another, because it has over stayed it's welcome, not that it was welcomed in the first place. DAMN GERMS!!

Friday, January 25, 2013

All Drugged Up

Thanks to the bear for getting me all the medication so I can at least function at work today. Thank god it's Friday, but still going in on Sunday so I can get those damn applications caught up and find out who is ready for our orientation next week. Plus, I could use the overtime to make up for some missed hours. First, I have to find out if it's okay with the boss man. Thankfully I have Diva and tiny as my coworkers because they do a wonderful job helping me even when they are swamped with things of their own. I love and appreciate you two, and to the boss man for doing my orientation yesterday.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Sick Again?

Well this fucking sucks, first I get the flu after having 11 days off of work and now I have a freaking cold. God I hate being in a germ incubator. Thank goodness I have great support at work who look out for one another.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Time To Shine

I just want to say have fun, and hope that people aren't to pissed about this years event. As much as we try to make it fair, it's not going to go without it's consequence. Like the saying goes, "No good deed goes unpunished".

Monday, January 21, 2013

I Apologize

Friday was a frustrating and stressful day until I let it all go. The positives were me losing 2 more pounds from our Biggest Loser competition at work and mentioned in the Diva's blog team red has lost 20lbs collectively, GO US!! I went from being #2 out of 12 to #3 but we still have 6 weeks to go. My mark is 220 by my birthday. The other positive note was being able to catch up with a good friend over beers and whiskey shots. I never realize how much I miss a person until you don't see them all the time. The weekend was nice and relaxing, but very short lived like they all are. It didn't end the way that I would have hoped due to my outburst to an innocent bear but that will be explained below.

Alright, I think I got them all out of the way, the negatives aren't as many because I'm just not a negative type of person.....okay not all the time. Work is work and I'm not going into great detail about any of that, but I will say this, thanks for taking the fun out of a new learning experience that I really didn't want to begin with. I took it because I figured it was my duty, but realized that I did have a say and that my voice will be heard damn it. A couple of weeks ago, this extra burden was given to me due to my position and that the person before me actually took care of it. But for her it came at a cost because she wasn't good at delegating responsibilities nor was she very organized to where her regular job was being jeopardized. So now it's my turn to take a swing at this and even though I'm way more grounded, I was getting frustrated. On top of it all my job was hurting due to what I called an extracurricular activity that honestly should have went to someone in a management role. But that is all behind me now due to resigning from the head position on Friday. I was hating the fact that it was affecting my work and home life to the point of being unbearable to be around me. I didn't realize it, but I was being short with the bear and not very talkative. Which leads me to my outburst, granted I was sleepy and getting cranky, but that was no excuse to bite the bear's head off over something so stupid. He simply mentioned one little thing and I fucking came unglued. For this I apologize, but what if an apology isn't enough? After calming down and realizing what I had done, we talked and that's when he told me how I'd been acting and that he was glad that I stepped down from the committee at work. He didn't want my health and relationship to suffer for something as small that blew up to be bigger than it should have been. Now it's Monday, and it's time to head back to work, then I realized it's Martin Luther King Jr day and am wondering if the office is even opened. Oh well, I guess I'll find out. 

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Who's In Charge?

Yesterday had it's ups and downs and then something snapped in my head. "I will get it done and I will get through this, but going forward we will need to make some changes", is what the voice said. As I sat and listened to the meeting yesterday, I surveyed who the strongest players were and who were not so strong. Those who just want to say shit out loud and those who just wanted to take charge but not be responsible. Here's the thing, we have so many egos sitting at one table whose idea is better than the last and no compromise. When the idea gets questioned feelings are hurt and the side talking begins. If you have something to add fucking say it to the group, not the few people who will side with just you and do it behind the groups back. Reel it back in and lets discuss the concerns instead of turning this whole thing into complete chaos. On top of it all, the person in "charge" is still learning about this sort of stuff. Boy do they learn fast. One good idea was a change in meeting place because of the music being too damn loud. I agreed on that, because it's bullshit to have to yell over the music and then over the side conversations. After this whole experience one thing is for sure, changes need and will be made.

Monday, January 14, 2013

Crunch Time

It's time for our annual award show at the lodge and it's time for me to embrace my new found duties as the head of the committee. I have to get things accomplished before time is up and how embarrassing would it be to have no awards to give out for an award show? And this hyped raffle drawing without prizes? Well today is the day to change all that even if it means staying extra today to finish my normal work because I have about 10 new hires sitting and waiting to be called. As much fun as last week was playing catch up, this week is imperative that I get things done. Wish me luck!!

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

The Music Man

I would like to say that I listen to different genres of music, but mostly I listen to different eras of music. The more I think about it, I realize it's the same genre just different decade. From Madonna to Lady Gaga, it's the same just evolved a little. The bear and I have talked about this many times and he is stuck in the 80's new wave mainly Dead or Alive. Where as I have a handful of people that I love. My first love was Paula Abdul, and when she went crazy her music lived on in my head when she was "normal". My first rap album was Salt 'n' Pepa thanks to my cousin. First country album was Tanya Tucker, because my mom couldn't find Paula lol. My first metal album was Metallica, which by that time they had already sold out and they weren't the same so I was told. I look back at how my taste have evolved (I don't say changed because I still have and listen to all the old stuff) and start to think of all the bands, artists that have stuck around this long. Weezer was a band that I didn't think too much of until 9 albums later and realized I have them all. Matchbox Twenty and Third Eye Blind helped me get through my adolescence and sparked new interests to other things. Now some people look through my collection of adult contemporary  and say I do have a broad sense of music but the one genre I have the most of is Pop music. Thanks for my love for K$sha and Katy Perry sprinkled in with some Linkin Park, Maroon 5, Panic at the Disco, and Lifehouse. The list goes on and on. I'm making CDs for spaz this morning which sparked this topic for me thinking about what I should do for a mix CD and remembering the days when we made mix tapes for friends and old girlfriends. Funny how things change but stay the same. Well back to burning.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

The Beginning

Although I have done and said this before, it's time to lose the weight. I have never taken the advice from the news before, but this year seemed different. Channel 5 went to a gym and was asking trainers what 3 of the most important things to remember when starting a work out regimen. 1. Set goals that are realistic, don't go all out on your first try. Start out small and work your way to the bigger challenges this way you aren't burning yourself out so quickly and not returning to the workout. 2. Have fun with it. Get with a support team like friends or a group to motivate you to workout. 3. (The most important I think) Accountability, announce to people what you are doing so that they know how to help you stay focused on your goals and they can help you succeed. Like the trainer said "If no one knows that you are doing something, then there are many escape routes for you." So with the new season of The Biggest Loser kicks off, our admin office decided to do a competition amongst those who wanted to pay $20 bucks for the winner to win. Prize money you say, nothing says motivation then prize money!! Granted I was already on my diet now I have a chance to do numbers 2 & 3 of the advice listed above. A little friendly competition never hurt anyone and it's a good way to stay focused not only on the health side of things but to kick some butt as well. Now where did I put those damn weights.

Monday, January 7, 2013

Another Victory

Yes, the Hawks kicked some butt yesterday, but the real victory was me getting over being sick and returning to work yesterday to do some much needed catch up. It was nice to see on accomplished task after another get swept off of my desk. However today, I must face the music of my errors. Unfortunately I am human and made some huge mistakes. Yes they can be fixed and Diva is really great at doing that. But I still made them and it angers but humbles me. Granted, I never said I was the best people just assumed.....just kidding. I learn from my mistakes and move on to the next ones lol. HAPPY MONDAY!!

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Let's Begin A New

As we enter the 2nd day of the new year, I go back to the office today refreshed and ready to take on more. This past year has had it's ups and downs. This roller coaster ride hasn't come to a complete stop yet. Our paths are paved with the decisions we make and for the first part of last year, all I could talk about it moving to California. Oh look, I'm still in Washington. Granted, it was a great decision on my part and word has it that the lodge down there begins to be built this month, I'm glad that I put those plans on the back burner and decided to work with a great team in the HR department. Now I can learn more and be taught by one of the best. The end of the year went out with a vacation for yours truly, as I relaxed through the holidays like no one's business. Christmas went off without a hitch and we even got a white one. Dinner was good as always, but it's the day after that really defined my vacation with a surprise. We are no longer in the dinosaur ages for we got smart phones!! That's right, the bear decided to go see what offers they had since our contract was coming up at the end of the year while I used one of my Christmas gifts to shop for CDs. As I stood in line to pay, I saw him dart through Best Buy on the phone giving a quick glance over to the line I was in and out the door he went. After I paid, I went to search for him and he was still on the phone with his brother talking about a deal he had found over at the Best Buy phone store. Getting the thumbs up from his brother I did quick math in my head and said we could afford it and a few more this and thats later we were owners of Droid Razrs. These phones are cool and so glad that we decided to upgrade. Friday found us out at the casino (breaking my one rule about being down by the lodge while on my vacation) with a few friends. I'm so glad that I broke that rule because I was able to spend some time with a good friend and my partner in crime who I hadn't seen in a week. I was hoping that I would see the Diva before she left because I hadn't seen her in 2 weeks, but she was already gone. We spent the night gambling and drinking and just having loads of fun. New Years was spent with the brother instead of the bear's parents this year. We drank like fishes and rang in the new year with a buzz or I mean bang lol. Now the tree is down and ornaments packed away for another year, it's time for me to dust of the uniforms and head back to the office.