It's Nothing Personal

My older sister calls me and informs that her truck has broken down and we are no longer going to the wedding. I was disappointed but I don't have the money to fix anything as I'm sure she spent all her money fixing the truck. My car can't be trusted since it's having issues of it's own, or else I would have driven us. My cousin was upset but I'm sure she will be just fine once the smoke clears. Another person to whom I unfriended just started ramblings on my posts and that annoys me. Especially when it comes from a person who does nothing but put up stupid things like Pot Farm quotes and random videos. OMG dude enough with the shit. I guess it's time for the spring cleaning to begin on the friends list. It's seems that all I did this weekend is make people angry with me via facebook and text and probably annoyed the bear with me doing nothing but playing a video game. Other than that, it was a great weekend of doing absolutely nothing. Maybe next weekend we'll actually go do something.

Change is in the Air

Ever have that weird feeling like something big is going to happen that will just change everything in your world as you know it? I have that feeling almost everyday. Will this be the day that I move to Cali? Am I going to get that job that I had applied for? Well this similar feeling is circulating around and everyone is trying to find a reason to why certain people are here. It's fun to see who's attitudes drastically change just because of these certain people being here. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it is nothing big, but change is coming. And I'm ready for it.

Dreaming

I woke up to the alarm this morning after a bout of weird dreaming. I was frustrated to the max and acted like a 2 year old not getting his way. When the alarm went off, I was relieved that it was just a dream. This patient thing is totally wearing on me. Granted I have a goal and goals take time to reach, I'm just wondering what if...screw that, there is no more what if's there is only "I CAN DO IT!!"

It's What I Do

I believe that we all have our purpose. Have you found yours? I was raised on the notion that hard work pays off. Being raised on a farm and having responsibilities really helped me learn things that others can't comprehend. Even when I landed my first job, I was taught about paying rent and managing my money from paycheck to paycheck. Sitting here now looking back, I truly understand what they were trying to teach me and that my childish thoughts of being treated unfairly are gone. I worked hard in my education and it has paid off. Now, I must use that same determination to achieve an even greater goal.

4/20/12

Celebrating this day would be way different in my past, but now days I just sit back and think on how stupid I was. I make fun because I know I won't be making those mistakes again and instead of getting angry I just laugh. The bear, knowing that I was going to be be exhausted, decided on getting a pizza. I had to go in early for a photo shoot and then put out little payroll fires all day. Oh and little AR one's as well. All in all it was a great Friday. Oh and Diva was feeling under the weather so she was absent from my life as well (sad face). I hope that she feels better. When I got home, just like the bear predicted, I was pooped. The weekend is here again and so its time to relax and let the fun begin.

Self Torture

For a couple of years now, the bear has been torturing himself with everything California. Yes, we are still moving but a few obstacles have surfaced for us to jump around or actually break through. So for now, he's been at home watching their news instead of Washington's, which isn't a huge deal since they revolve themselves around the state of Seattle. They have a web cam of Laguna Beach that he relentlessly subjects himself to (cursing at all the people on the beach for example). As I'm sitting at work, I get a huge laugh when a text comes from him saying "Fucking weather bitch did said it again," or "Another 80 degree day, I hate this fucking state." It's funny and said at the same time. I just need to over come these obstacles so we can be happy.

Sometimes They Comeback

Monday saw the return of my diva from her trip to Texas. It was exciting to hear the stories from her venture, I swear never a dull moment with her. She wasn't the only returning person to grace the lodge with their presence though, an old friend returned to fill out an application to once again work with us. She was one of the originals with me at opening. It was good to see her even if it was brief. I still had a lot of work to do myself. On a sad note, today we lose miracle to the desk. But it is in her best interest and we as friends must support that. She asked that we don't forget about her (like that would ever happen). All in all, it was a great day for the most part.

Just What I Wanted

After doing Easter last weekend, I said to myself "Self, I just want to relax at home and sleep in and be lazy." So this is exactly what I did. Just a 9 hour sleep times two and then a all day video game extravaganza. It was good to be me.

Jealous Much?

Is it bad that I'm jealous of all the vacations and trips people are taking? Diva ran down to Texas, granted it was work related but still. My cousin is going to Vegas as well as a friend from work. Instead of getting jealous I need to start saving some money and take a trip of my own. I would love to go to Florida and see Walt Disney World finally.

Quiet Time

The past couple of months there was a storm brewing in the background and finally it came to a head. The best part is cooler heads prevailed like always and things are quieting down for now. Is this the calm before the storm? Not sure, but for now it seems to be better for all parties involved. Does this change my point of view? HELL NO!! But I'm not going to be the cause of anything bad. That isn't my style.

It's Time

Time to head back to work. I had an amazing weekend ending with getting all the shopping done and not sitting at home. I'm relaxed, composed, and ready.

Easter 2012

It was a good time and a bad time. Anytime my family get together things tend to be a little different. Saturday, I drove up to get my older sister in a rental car, a chevy cruze and I want one. She and her three kids were all ready for the ride over to Wenatchee. I had made my older sister and her two oldest cd's for the car ride to which we listened to and had good laughs and great conversation. Did I mention that I loved that car!! Anyway, we stopped in our usual town for bathroom breaks and lunch, then an hour later we arrived in Wenatchee. As we passed the "you are now entering" sign, I shivered because I really don't like that town. But with a smile still on my face we texted and called all the appropriate people to let them know that we had arrived safely. After getting to my younger sister's house and having a smoke, I was asked to go to the store. I just drove 300 miles and now I have to go to the store, but this is nothing new and not unexpected. My oldest niece was making dinner, which was very good by the way. I kept the kids entertained while the parents brought in easter basket fixings. Oh, and we had all the kids staying the night, which messed up the sleeping arrangements for my older sister yet again without a bed, but not without my offering of the one I was sleeping in. Everyone was there except for my brother, who thought that shooting and drinking was way more important. I went to the store a second time but with my older sister and mom. On the way, we had to hear about my moms woes and drama filled situation with her ex and how she is subjected to a hostile work environment. But she did ask us how our lives were going, and since neither of us have drama in our lives it was back to her and how everyone treats her poorly. The next morning, I woke up @ 7am to beat everyone for the shower. I went out and had a smoke to reflect on yesterday's events and how much I missed my dad and my grandpa. Easter was my grandpa's favorite holiday. Every tradition that we do was passed on by him mostly. As everyone started to wake up, the kids were excited to see that the Easter Bunny had come and the once quiet morning turned into chaos. Only a few more hours I thought to myself. After waiting until 11:30, my older sister decided that we should head over to the park, to which I agreed. We arrived at the park, and after circling around for a few minutes we ran into familiar faces and eventually found where we were supposed to be. We had parked and piled out. I walked around and did my normal greetings to everyone. My brother and his family arrived shortly after as did my younger sister with our grandma. Due to a death in the family earlier in the week a few weren't able to make it. My love goes out to my family who are going through this hard time right now. The festivities were great as the kids rushed to find those eggs that we had hidden. The food was good. But the drama was just so damn thick that you could sense who was pissed at who. Since I wash my hands clean of all this non sense, I just sit back and enjoy the live production of Soap Opera Theater. But as the day drew longer I was getting my fill and looked over at my older sister and we shared a thought together, "LET'S GO!!" After saying our good byes we headed on to Ellensburg where we dropped off the girls to their grandma, and then to home and my good bye to the cruze (tear). I caught up with the bear and said my hellos to the dogs and about an hour later I sad my good night. I'm glad I went and enjoyed the majority of my time over there, but even more glad that I'm home and that it is over for another year. Next event will be a day trip for my cousin's wedding and that's in 27 days. Give me the strength.

Don't Worry

I'm feeling pretty good right about now on where I stand with everything in my life. Job wise, it's just a job and that is all. I'm there, I do my thing, I leave simple. Home life is relaxing at times, sometimes boring because we sit at home a lot. Family, they keep their distance with a couple times of chat a month. I can't complain, because I have more then most.

4/4/12

Just another day in paradise though it seems. People are people and that is what I really expect now days. A line from a song tells it all "Seasons change but people don't". Which I know isn't always the case but it actually fits with some of the folks I know. One of these people are back to their snappy self while another is just so full of themselves they don't realize how much of a joke they really are. If only they were smart enough to see, but then again they may know and they cry themselves to sleep wondering what and why. I really doubt it, but hell who knows right, I'm no mind reader. I'm really getting burned out on my position and want a change, but nothing is opened that will offer me such change. I've been asked to join another department, but I really couldn't afford to do that. Don't get me wrong I love my job, I'm just fizzling to the point of wondering away. I really try my hardest and get nothing in return with the exception of being recognized as employee of the month in 2010, which is a great honor in my eyes. I would have never expected that in a million years honestly. Going forward though, I'm keeping my opinions to myself for they do nothing but get me into trouble, and when I ask for help I'm going to be better and communicating what I'm trying to say and ask, and be less frustrated and babyish in dealing with explaining things. I will be ok, just needed to vent a little to the only one who listens and that is mostly me, but I made a vow when I come home, I leave work at work. I sometimes can't help but lash out from time to time, but for the most part I'm getting good at this letting it go. As a co-worker said to me "Pick your battles". Great advise for someone like me who wants to fight everything just to lose in the end.

Feeling Sick?

I've learned my lesson, time to change up my eating habits, no more lunch!! I can't believe that my stomach rejected a hot dog from work, guess it's just not for me anymore. Oh well, I need to go back to watching what I'm eating anyway now that my meds are kicking in.

Like Old Times

I watched Wrestlemania last night and it lived up to it's hype. A match that was dubbed "Once in a Lifetime" and another "End of an Era". They both were very exciting. Moments before the pay per view started me and my best friend were texting, getting one another pumped for show. I couldn't help but feel like he was sitting next to me going crazy like the first time we watched wrestlemania together. Our tradition was cut way to short, but this made up for it. One by one the matches came and ended in grand fashion and by the end of the show we had accumulated 322 messages, I had saved his messages from a few days prior because we made our predictions. I went back and saw how good we did and I was off by one and my BF was off by 2, not bad. The bear was still gone by the time I decided to go to bed because I had to be at work early today. All in all it was so much fun to be a fan and to get to watch it again with my BF even better.