Passion

Passion comes in all forms rather it be an over whelming love for a person, or an obsession over objects. I'm no different when it comes to such passion for things. I have so many it's hard to pick a favorite. Music will always be the staple of what drives me. A few posts back I asked everyone what their personal sound track would consist of and granted I got no response because I only have one reader, to which her birthday was yesterday to which I really want to take her out today, she for some odd reason was unable to respond. However, music is just one part of my passion (more obsession). So what makes you tick? What is the one thing in your life that makes you light up every time?

1/29/12

Last night was great, the rumble made me happy with a few quirky surprises. My weekend was a nice relaxing weekend putting my mind at ease on a few hundred things and returning to my former self (sort of). With month end around the corner already, I have already gotten the majority of my part taken care of, now it's just time to deal with the everyday stuff.

1/26/12

Me and my partner in crime were kicked out from work due to overtime. Since the work job lost money from the recent storm, overtime has been forbidden therefore we took our happy asses to the casino where we lost our money in an hour. Joking on the way back to the work job to drop me off to my car, I told her we should just clock back in, and she replied yeah we only took a lunch. I guess you had to be there to enjoy the humor. All I have to say is I"m glad that she is in my life.

Extreme Weather Aftermath

So much clean up so little time, from restoring the power to all those who lost it to the removal of fallen trees. This is what has to happen to make everything normal again, plus side is the roads are clear once again and the snow is nearly depleted. Then there is stuff from my personal side, like how crappy my check is going to and the pile of work that is sitting there waiting for me to endure. Like a real trooper though, I'm taking this task head on and completing each one by one. What's next? That is a great question since we've gotten some rain and the snow melting from result of it, we are in danger of flooding, that's right ladies and gentlemen FLOODING!! And they said I was crazy for wanting a boat. The only thing now is who is going to be Noah, and what animals do we save.

People, Pizza, Beer

First day back and there was no internet for me to work on anything *sigh*. So I finished up some loose ends that I left from the previous week. Being gone for a week really sucks when there is no back up plan. I'm sure I can get this taken care of, I'll just need some help with a few things or put them on the back burner, but I'm not rushing this time. It was great to see my peeps yesterday and from the looks on their faces they agreed with me. I guess 3 days without seeing another person and living in the dark really changes a person. So we were invited out to my partner in crime's house for Beer and Football, only to find out that we were a day too early for the football. We watched a movie instead and ordered pizza to was down our disappointment of no game and to forget the awful movie (yes it was terrible). So we sat and visited for a few hours before the boss man drove me home. It was a great day and accomplished what I could with limited resources and no access to my programs.

Back To Work

So after being snowed in for a few days, it's time to finally go back to work and see what is waiting for this lucky cubby. I know that I won't get anything completely done as far as payroll is concerned, but I will have it to the point of processing on Monday. My check is going to suck!! Then again so is most people's checks.

Snow pt. 2 (It's Another Batman Day)

So my check is officially going to suck the big one due to missing a total of three days of work. Stupid snow and stupid freezing rain. It's sad that I can't even get out of my parking spot let alone out of this apartment complex. In about an hour I get to go out and wipe the snow off of my buried car and attempt what I already know is going to be a failed try at getting out of here.

This Is Just.....

I can't believe that I was stuck at home yesterday, this next check is going to be bad. I heard that the weather is just going to get worse before Wednesday afternoon, so I'm packing a change of clothes to take to the lodge with me today just in case I get stranded there. Have I said I hate this state, because I do.

Snow

Ok so I really don't mind the snow as long as I don't have to drive in it, even though this is the condition to which I learned how to drive in (being from Wenatchee were it snows alot). But I would give it up to be somewhere warm all year round instead of this 32 degree bull shit. I'm just not a fan like I used to be and to top it off I'm just done with being cold all the fucking time.

Momentary Loss of Sanity

For a brief moment in time I totally lost my fucking mind. I mean really lost it and flipped out to the point no recovery. It was like my thoughts were not my own, I was channeling a totally different persons thoughts. I was told to calm down that it will be alright, but it hadn't ran it's course yet so their advice were just empty words at that particular moment. Crazy comes in so many different forms, but for me there are only two. Psycho rage to the point that all I see is red (this one is very seldom). Uncontrollable sadness to where everything is just nothing but grey and dreary. My partner in crime told me that I'm a rollercoaster of emotion that after I hit an extreme high there is a huge drop waiting in front of me. She couldn't be more right when it comes to me. More times I'm at my high all the time with a huge smile on my face and regardless on how I really feel inside the smile contains me for the most part. Then the moment arises where the hurt and bottled up emotion just explodes and I feel that the whole world is just on my shoulders waiting for me to fail and that I have no allies to back me up and I'm left out alone is when that damn drop just dumps me into the abyss of insanity. For awhile now however I've not experienced the drop which worries me because I'm wondering when it's going to happen. I get no warning, I just wake up and it's an emo song playing in my head wanting me to cry, and thoughts of everything that is sad and wrong in the world flows through my brain (kind of like that abused animal commercial that is played all the time). I'm just excepting my good mood for what it is and praying that the drop doesn't happen anytime soon. I'm happier this way because I know I'm better then what I give myself credit for, but like one of my favorite song lyrics goes "I only wish I was half as good as you think I am".

Oh Wolfys

Well red carpet didn't go as I would have liked it to go, but it was still cool to be apart of it. To ham it up with barely working mic and a co-host who just loved to hear her own voice (and a few drinks in her already) made for a great start of the evening. It was a great night with a surprise win for my DIVA. I had no clue that she got it but was hoping that she would and when she was announced the winner, I thought to myself "see you are appreciated more than you know".

The Wolfys

2012 Wolfys are tonight. I'm red carpet baby!! I get to have a microphone with my co-host Christina Mithun. I'm super excited about the unveiling of our Hangover parody which is corny as all hell, but I enjoyed partaking in it. Just a few finishing touches here and there, we will be ready......will you!!

Early Day

This is going to be a very long day today. Start at 5am and work until god knows when, but it's to make up for a day off on Wednesday. I will be all caught up before the Wolfys tomorrow so my obligations will be filled. I'm going to be so tired tonight, but it's so worth it.

Ready for the Weekend

I'm so excited that my 6 day work week is over and happy about the outcome. Of course it didn't come without a few glitches but nothing too major that I can't overcome. Now it's time to sit back relax and enjoy the things that bring me happiness, like my Christmas present, my bear, and doing absolutely nothing at all. Yay for the weekends!!

1/5/12

To say the least, I really haven't started out this year on the right foot. I have slacked off a little even though it doesn't look like it from my hours at work. But, this is not the level of work I'm used to putting in on a weekly basis. I'm better than this for sure. Today the 6th of January I've decided to buckle down and just get my shit done. This way I can go into the weekend knowing that I'm truly done. However, I feel like it's going to be a long day because I have a lot to do. I do have three days off this week, so I'm in no fear of going into ot like last week.

A Star Is Born

It's pretty cool to think that 4 years ago I started with my company as a no body and becoming someone that almost everyone knows. It keeps getting better because I've been asked to help out with our award show this coming Tuesday. I'm super excited to be able to do this. I am a ham when it comes to this sort of stuff and me and my Spa Lady will showcase. This may lead to something huge lol. I'm ready for my close up Mr. DeMill.

1/2/12

A new year is upon us and I have big plans of change this year. Starting with getting credit cards paid off and the car tuned up. The biggest plan is to relocate down to southern Cali which I've been talking about for sometime, but always found reason to postpone it from actually happening. What makes this time different from all the other times? I'm not listening to pleas of "stays" from others even though they claim to not have said anything of the sort. I'm more confident in my skills now that I've enhanced them and I'm not scared anymore like before. My dream is to work for a Disney park (DCA or Disneyland). People are still trying to talk me into staying until the new lodge opens down there and I would love to but I can't wait that long. We (meaning the bear and I) are so sick and tired of this state, and I'm tired of watching the bear go into deep depression every fucking winter. It breaks my heart and he's not the greatest person to be around when he's like this. Trust me, I'm not doing this just for him, this is something I really want and something that I've wanted for a long time (5 years ago to be exact). Nothing can stop us now.