End of the Year

As soon as work is done today starts my mini vacation for 11 days. This year has seen a lot of ups and a lot of downs. The more memorable things is my partner in crime got her son back from Cali. I switched departments due to not wanting to work with a dumb bitch anymore and to learn more and new things. The dumb bitch got smart and walked away. I moved from crackton. We've lost some wonderful people, my brother in law's son and Diva's father. Also all the senseless shootings that took so many lives. Easter with my family was wonderful and to find out that I'm not as an outcast as I once thought. 2012 has had it's hardships and rewards and here's to the future and to 2013. Oh and the world didn't end today, I bet Vegas is paying out some money for all the bets lmao!! I love you all and hope that you have a wonderful holiday and a happy prosperous new year. See you all in 2013.

Addiction is Hard

We all have our vices and addictions to things that are very hard to overcome. For the bear and me we have our typical tobacco addictions. I like to drink, him not so much. We both have one though that is very costly and it's called gambling. We love those damn slot machines. For me, I have a hard time walking away when I'm there, for the bear he has a hard time dealing with his boredom. If we could only break ourselves from what some people call evil, we would be okay. But since we are human, it doesn't seem too likely that this will happen anytime soon. Just chalk up our losses and move on right?

SNOW

As many of you wake up this morning, there is snow on the ground. As much as I do love the snow, I hate driving in it with others who don't know what the fuck they are doing. As you venture out today be careful.

Weekend Recap

Friday was your typical checked out mentality at work. After getting all my necessary work done, I helped my partner in crime with a few things for Corporate. I had lunch with my sister in law and tiny and had a nice rare conversation. She was there to take advantage of the 50% sale we have annually. The more I talk to her the more I love her. At 3:30 the boss man comes in and says "We are getting out at 4". Even though I was supposed to leave at 3 because the accounting peeps were hitting the casino, but after a short talk with the bear about our finances we both decided it was best if I didn't. 4 came and we all checked out for the weekend. Even though the weekend was here I was looking forward to the next week because it was one week before I have 11 days off. So Friday evening was uneventful, I went to bed at my normal time. Saturday was the day of my partner in crime's party. I was so excited for this release and having some fun with my friends and coworkers. There were drinks and tamales, chips and homemade salsa (which was amazing) and a weird board game that we played for a small amount of time before the partner in crime's neighbors came over with their kiddos. The kids were cute and the neighbors were really nice. We all had a good laughs and decided to watch Ted. Not a bad movie from the parts that I actually sat and watched. To say that we all were drunk was an understatement even though a few peeps peaced out early. At 1am we decided to call it a night and the bear drove home since he wasn't drinking. Got up about 10am without that much of a hangover, but still feeling the affects from the nights event decided to call off all plans and just relax at home. So I caught up on my wrestling and watched the Seahawks kill bills.....hahaha see what I did there. It was another great weekend with me getting up at 3:30am this morning because the bear has an eye appointment later today and I have to leave work early. So here is to a speedy week because next week it's Christmas and boy am I excited to see the faces of our family light up.

Continue

As we continue on, remember to hold your loved ones tight. Tell them we love them.

Horrible Events

The holidays is meant to be a time of joy and family. The last couple of days have been nothing close to that. Some clearly mentally damaged individuals thought it would be a great idea to take their guns and shoot innocent people. The Clackamas mall shooting was horrifying but this latest shooting actually involved children. 20 children will never have a full life due to a crazy guy with a gun. The parents are torn from their children and they don't know why. My heart goes out to those hurting during this terrible time.

Tell Me This

How do you measure someone's worth? Is it how they contribute to society? Or maybe it's their good looks that get them all the attention. In any case, I believe it's the whole picture, their ups and downs that makes a person. You can have the greatest looks in the world and still turn out to be a complete douche, but you can look homeless and have the heart of gold. Me personally, I look for attitude rather than looks. Like the old saying goes "You can't judge a book by it's cover," (in most cases because there are those that you know are just going to annoy the fuck out of you at first glance). I really believe that attitude measures the person to the fullest because attitude tells what said person is willing to do, how far they want to go in life and what kind of ambitions they have. Not too long ago, I had the crappiest disposition on life and where I was headed. It took a few good people to show me the right direction and guide me on to the path that will lead me to where I want to go. Who else feels this is the start of Dorothy Gale's trip to OZ? Just follow that yellow brick road BITCH!!

Loving The Holidays

As a family tradition, it's almost time to decorate the parents tree again. I so do love decorating the tree. They have the best ornaments and the coolest retro stuff like Bubble Lights. Our shopping is almost done, only 2 left to shop for and it looks as though they are getting gift cards this year. Nothing wrong with gift cards especially when they are the hardest to shop for. I realized that there is only one pay day left before Christmas and if they don't want gift cards they need to start hinting fast. The only thing that I love more than shopping for Christmas and decorating the tree is wrapping presents. It's so festive and the somewhat skill I got from wrapping came when we were raising money for our trip to Cali when I was a sophmore in high school. Oh memories. 

Destiny and Happiness

"You should never feel as though you are trapped inside of your own life". These words have never rang so true for some of us lately. There are so many things in this world that makes us all feel this way sometimes. Rather it be at our jobs or in our relationships, there has to be an even balance between all aspects for our own well being. Sure, there are times where we second guess ourselves making us think if it is the right thing, but hell what is the right thing. Is the right thing following our dreams to better ourselves to make us happy? Is it staying put and locked in something that makes us OK or just plain miserable?  And what about those that we leave behind along the way, are we supposed to stop caring about how they may be effected by any of our changes? Life's decisions are really hard especially when you have a heart and feelings. Or for those who have always put others before themselves. I believe that everything happens for a reason and for those who truly say they love you wouldn't expect you to do anything less. Sure there are going to be tears from change but no one has the right to hold anyone back nor would they expect anything but the best for our futures. So go on and be happy, make those changes that will benefit you. It's not selfish to want to take care of yourself in the way you see fit. It's sort of like cleaning out your closet of things you no longer wear, or getting rid of all those childhood things that defined us as children. All it takes is one step at a time, and for some of us who have been stuck for awhile, it's that giant leap forward that makes us better.

That is That

You know the expression "You've made your bed now you must lay in it". Well this couldn't be more of the truth with recent events. Some people just don't get the whole picture, just looking for them and only them, you know the selfish self centered ones. The day has finally come to where the lies and backstabbing has finally caught up to where they have no outs any longer. It's bittersweet, meaning that this shouldn't have been dragged out as long as it did. To quote Kelly "I don't wish bad things, but I don't wish you well". But ever since I moved on to better things my previous hurt feelings have died and now it's been nothing but.......well nothing at all towards this person.

Weekends Are Great

Friday night, I went out with co-workers for drinks and had a great time. Ended up out in the boonies where we drank a little more before my partner in crime decided it was time to go. She called a cab and it was going to be $100 to get both of us home. She didn't even blink an eye and said "It was well worth it". I still will take her out to lunch for getting me home safe and sound. Saturday, after waking up with NO hangover, we got ready and started our free year Cosco membership. We looked up and down every aisle and saw that we would probably be broke after a few trips there. So we decided that if we do go we will go sparingly. After getting a few things from Walmart we came home to walk the dogs and then spent an evening out together at our favorite place, THE CASINO. Although we didn't win, we still had a great time enjoying each others company. Sunday, the bear and his brother were venturing north to shop. I received a few pics from the bear going through the Disney store to where he was torturing himself and wanting to go to Disneyland. I spent the day watching football and wrestling while putting up our tree. Between plays and talking segments I put up branch after branch. It turned out good like always and after the lights are on it, it will look like a real tree. Oh what a great weekend full of food, fun and great people. Now off to work, is it Friday yet!!