Ready, Willing, & Done

This is going to be an interesting Christmas. I've been having a recurring dream as of late that's totally playing with my emotions and my mind. For those who've ever lost a loved one or multiple, you know the dream I am talking about. This was the same dream when I lost my Grandpa and now for my Dad. It's never easy and something that you'll never get over and if you think you can and it is you have no emotions and are a cold-hearted person. The bear had a Christmas request bestowed upon him last night while we were down decorating the parents tree. He is on the look out for 2 presents for his dad, on top of that I was shooed away so they can talk about my gifts, to which I'm easy to shop for. Earlier in the day, the bear's brother had asked what we got for his daughter and like last year and the year before that, we got her nothing for the same reasons, she has tons of people buying for her and we saw no reason to buy her anything, but since guilt set in, we broke down and gave the $5 gift card we had received from Toy R Us. To which I had foreseen would happen, and to be more scarey, he was using it to purchase legos when I told the bear that's what he should use the card for originally. So between the present hunting to the unexpected gift giving, it's going to be an interesting couple of days to say the least.