My Diva

She's so freaking sweet on so many levels that I couldn't even begin how much she's touched my life. I've watched her fall only to pick her self up and start climbing again. I know she knows that she's fabulous and climbing that damn hill in those heels isn't easy, but she makes it look like it is. She's raising two boys on her own who are now teenagers. And now she is my best friend and co-worker. We recently went to the casino the other night and had a blast like we always do when we are together at work or outside. There is no other like her and there will never be another to take her place no matter where she goes she is in my heart. Love you Diva and thanks for the fun!! HERE'S TO 2012!!

12/29/11

So there are talks that next year will be a better year, just like we said in 2010 going into 2011. I personally don't think 2011 was all that bad. It wasn't the greatest year but it wasn't the worst either. The prior year can suck my balls for all it inflicted upon me that's for sure. The bad thing is those inflictions are going to stay with me long after I am gone but it is apart of growing up and getting older. So here is to 2012 and hopes that I have a safe move in October or a painless apocalypse which ever comes first.

Can't Stop

So I'll probably be off for a few, since I got my new toy I haven't wanted to do anything else, it's so nice to be a kid again!!

The Best

I hope you all had a great Christmas this year, now back to reality.........booooooooooo, hissssssssssssss, I was just getting to the best part of the dream too.

Merry Christmas

It's that time of year full of love and cheer. Presents and beer. Good friends and family.

Christmas Traditions

We all have them, we do it in our own ways. The traditions that have been handed down from our families shine through with a few tweeks to make them feel like our own. The bear and I are no different. We do the usual Christmas specials that we own most of them, and go and watch the craziness of the last minute shoppers. As soon as we are relocated to Cali, we have dreamed up a few new traditions. Being a little jealous and bitter about watching a live cam that is at Laguna Beach, the bear says one of the traditions will be walking the beach in shorts and sending pictures to his brother via text to rub in the fact that we aren't in Washington anymore and that it's not 30 degrees lol. He's so mean it's almost scary. From decorating the tree to the official start time of opening gifts to the mad house that is last dash shopping, this is my favorite time of year (besides my favorite holiday 4th of July). To quote my favorite Christmas flick "God Bless Us Everyone".

Country Strong

I do love my country music and if you want a great movie to watch followed up with a great soundtrack you can't go wrong with Country Strong. It wasn't what I thought it was going to be first off. I never though Gwenyth Paltrow would be as good as she was, and Tim McGraw was just amazing. He showed emotion and played his character with passion. The music was just ear pleasing to me. My favorite song is "Coming Home" sung great by Leighton and Gwen, "Chances Are" is my second fave. But all in all I would give the movie a must watch by all those country lovers out there.

Ready, Willing, & Done

This is going to be an interesting Christmas. I've been having a recurring dream as of late that's totally playing with my emotions and my mind. For those who've ever lost a loved one or multiple, you know the dream I am talking about. This was the same dream when I lost my Grandpa and now for my Dad. It's never easy and something that you'll never get over and if you think you can and it is you have no emotions and are a cold-hearted person. The bear had a Christmas request bestowed upon him last night while we were down decorating the parents tree. He is on the look out for 2 presents for his dad, on top of that I was shooed away so they can talk about my gifts, to which I'm easy to shop for. Earlier in the day, the bear's brother had asked what we got for his daughter and like last year and the year before that, we got her nothing for the same reasons, she has tons of people buying for her and we saw no reason to buy her anything, but since guilt set in, we broke down and gave the $5 gift card we had received from Toy R Us. To which I had foreseen would happen, and to be more scarey, he was using it to purchase legos when I told the bear that's what he should use the card for originally. So between the present hunting to the unexpected gift giving, it's going to be an interesting couple of days to say the least.

I Hope It Never Goes Away

I've been around a few people who's moods change on the holidays. Either they go from grinches or whos it's always something different for everyone. This time of year is always a joyous one for me. I love to give gifts, I love the company and I love the atmosphere. From the specials on tv to the quirky little traditions we all come to love, there is always that feeling of "It's Christmas". I still get those feelings when we gear closer to the day of our lord's birthday or the day that Santa comes to town as if I were a 9 yr old waiting to unwrap his newly acquired GI Joe. I pray that this feeling washes over everyone and that it never goes away.

Christmas Shopping

Oh I can't wait, I get to finally do some shopping for my loved ones. This is my second favorite thing to do for Christmas, walking around to see what pops out at me and screams "I'd be perfect for so and so!!" The sad thing is I already did the bear's present, Disneyland x2 this year, so we aren't getting anything for each other. Hell Disneyland was fun so I would say it was the best present EVER!! My list of demands consisted of cd's like always, but I'm always surprised when I unwrap something that wasn't on my list but I thought about all year just never included it. The bear's parents are wonderful this way. This is going to be fun.

Moment of Weakness

I've had a temporary lapse in my weight loss. I've gained 6 pounds since Thanksgiving and just haven't found the motivation to lose any of it. However I refuse to gain anymore than that and so far I've done a good job keeping it that way. I need to buckle down and just do my exercise so I can lose those extra pounds and maybe even drop a few more, but I'm seriously thinking about waiting until after Christmas, so I can do nothing but concentrate on losing instead of stuffing myself with all the goodies that come with the holidays (damn fudge). I have some kind of strong will power in here somewhere.

It's All Good

I'm glad to be back to the norm. Thank you all for your warm welcome back to "the land of the living" as some of you delicately put. I can't say this is the last time that I'll leave for the night shift, but hopefully with the knowledge I've bestowed upon the auditors, this will be the last one for awhile. This Sunday, the bear and his brother fixed a major part of our car to which I'm also thankful for. I now can drive with a piece of mind that the car will run a little better. I'm looking forward to Christmas which is less than two weeks away. I'm also looking forward in clearing off the stack of billing that has surfaced on my desk just for my arrival back. Staying busy makes the time at work bearable and the time go by faster.

Locked Out and Panic

This morning when warming up the car to leave work, Scott our security guard was watching the lunar eclipse and asked me to join him. I figured why not since my car had to defrost anyway. I get out and reached back in to roll up the window and shut the door. After a few minutes I noticed that my car was defrosted and being tired from working over night I decided that it was time to call it a night. Unbeknownst to me I had hit the lock with my elbow or something and accidentally locked myself out of my car for the first time in my life. Out of shear panic I called the first person I knew would answer their phone, my brother in law (the bear's brother). He suggested calling his parents to come and wake the bear up for assistance. Not really knowing that the bear had his phone on, I gave it a shot and luckily he had it on and apparently he had told me that he was leaving it on since our car was having issues of course he may have told me when I was on the computer or was distracted and never heard him. He suggested that I call Tribal Police to see if they did lock outs. I felt like a dumb ass for not thinking of that, nor would I have in a million years, like I mentioned before this was the first time I had ever locked myself out of any vehicle. Long story short, they were able to assist with my new found retardation. I caused a huge "family wide panic" (as the bear calls it) for something that was an easy fix. Moral of this story is that a lunar eclipse and a cute security guard is not worth it, and by the way, that was my first lunar eclipse too so I guess it was a night of firsts. The bear told me tough shit if the car is cold, you will have to deal with it. I'm so glad I married for brains and not money.

All Considered

It's kind of nice revisiting my roots for better lack of words. Working the audit has really helped me appreciate where I've been and where I am now and where I can go. I'll be glad to get back to my norm come Monday, but for now I'm just picking up the rear and doing my training part as well as my regular job. I do miss my peeps that's for sure.

Living My Own "Back to the Future"

Bring on the graveyard shifts. I'm ready to get this started, but have one more day to wait. I'm getting my body used to working over night and used to the demanding schedule again. The best part about this, is I only have to do it for 4 nights. Then it's back to the office the following Monday, to which I'll be going in late due to a Doc appointment. And to an empty office pretty much. Thank god for my partner in crime, I'd go crazy.

Where It All Began

Crazy to think that I ever worked graveyard and actually liked it. Nothing much has changed in my feelings for the position. It's what got me where I wanted to go. Going back and watching new people learn it is very cool to me, especially when I'm the teacher. I love the fact that I am trusted enough to get the new auditors trained and still be able to do my normal job in accounting. This has to prove to them that even though I am planning on moving next year that I"m not going to just give up on the company. So instead of sleeping at 11pm, I'll be just clocking in for work. Who said you can never go home again?

Change

This expression has so many meanings to so many people. Change is something you either except or are just scared of completely. For me, change is the fear of the unknown and adventures that are awaiting me. Our plans to move to California scares me but the fear will not stop us from making our way to our dream. Change is taking risks that may or may not break you. I will not let fear control my destiny, my dreams, or my change.